I'm getting so tired of work. The entire last week I try to get myself excited that I'm going to make lots of money and then as soon as I step out of the dressing room, I don't even want to talk to anybody. And I'm actually starting to look forward to joining the army. What kind of person looks forward to going to boot camp???? I just got to wait for stupid husband to actually get a job. There's no way we would be able to live on just my army salary. We would barely pay our bills and buy food. Absolutely no entertainment money. But if dumbass were to get a job, we would be making just as much or more than I am now. Oh, but that means the loser has to work. Don;t get me wrong, I love my husband. He just pisses me off sometimes expecially in the work area.

slacker husbands who don't care
Mood:  irritated
Topic: Husband
ok, this last weekend, J was to go to the big City to have a physical done to verify that he's in good enough shape to join the Nat'l Guard. The ass failed his tape test. (they tape measure your neck and tummy and compare the two to see how much fat you have) He measured 26.1% body fat and the limit was 24%. A whole f**kin' 2% off! That's like, 1/2 inch of waistline. So did they let him pass...nnooooo. SO, hubby still doesn't have a job and doesn't seem like he minds very much,. He's been pushing me to do the army thing, but he doesn't understand, if I do, I'll be making about 1/2 as much at first and so He needs to have a job before I'll even think about going to boot camp. And there's no way in hell I'm letting him have access to the checking account while I'm gone. He says it would be to pay bills. Bullshit. He has way too bad of a gambling problem for me to trust all the money we have to his judgment of how to spend it. He can get a job for spending money for himself, and I will send off the checks for bills from boot camp. He's too lazy and irresponsible to pay the bills.

career change
Mood:  quizzical
Topic: work
welll, been talking w/ the hubby. I think I'm going to join the army. Of course, J's recruiter was trying to get me to join the guard, but I didn't realize all the jobs that were available. I'm going to go in for Finance (accounting, travel expenses,disbursements,etc.) which is pretty much what I was trying to go to school for. (Which I've decided to drop out of. Have to have a 4.0 this sememster and next two years! in order to graduate and get into my program) I can get out of the night life, move back into the normal world and be happy. The only thing I don't want to do is go to boot camp. I could handle the physical part, it's the yelling and mental anguish that they put you through that I'm unsure of. But the more I get to thinking about the army, the more I realize it'd be the best thing for me. I would get the job I want and all the training and schooling I would need so when I rejoin the civilian world, there wouldn't be anyone who would hesitate at hiring me.

too many bills
Mood:  irritated
Topic: work
I don't remember the last time we were this behind on this many bills. I have to make a double car payment this week b/c I had a check bounce ($360) the cell phone bill due (and they will shut it off $110) Car insurance is due ($186), late fees for paying late rent (about $75), by next tuesday have to pay the gas company $240 to keep it on, I owe my bank almost $400 b/c of bad check fees and stupid companys redepositing shit 5 times, and by then, next month will be here which means mortgage and rent.

catching up on last days
Mood:  cool
Topic: Anything & Everything
yeah, haven't written, but haven't had time either. It's the 16th now and we still haven't paid all our rent, I don't have the house payment for mom, I still owe for a car payment b/c I accidently wrote them a bad check and I have another car payment due on the coming thursday. Work sucks b/c there's no body coming into the club with any money and we have all these skanky new girls going around more or less giving free lapdances. Why buy the cow if the milk's free thing. Decided that I want to join the National Guard with the hubby. the recruiter is trying to talk me into going into an Administrative MOS (Human resources, accounting, finance, blah blah) which is cool b/c I am actually trying to go to school for accounting. The bad part is that since I would be first time military, I have to go to boot camp. But I guess it'll only be 5 weeks, not 9 weeks like what I thought.

a**hole
Mood:  on fire
Topic: Husband
ARGH! Hubby been gone all day to a poker championship for the Bar Poker here in town. Basically play poker with play money and then if you place high enough times in one month, you get invited to a monthly tournament that the winner gets $1000. ok, no big deal. It's free. I just get a call from him (he didn't take his cell phone b/c there wouldn't be reception where he was going) on a friends phone asking--no, ordering--me to western express money onto his online REAL money account. We CAN'T afford to! we already got the 3 day "pay your rent or leave" notice and I called on Friday and told them that I'd have it on Monday. As it is, I can only give them most of it, but not all. So he gets all pissed off and hangs up on me b/c I said no. Try calling the number back to see maybe where he is?? and the phone goes straight to voicemail. I swear he's worse than the brattiest 2 year old having a tantrum if he doesn't have everything his way right away. And get this -- the western union we have closed 2 hours ago anyway!!!! I've about had it with his freeloading. He hasn't had a job for more than 4 months since we've been together (almost 5 years.). Something's gotta change. And soon or else his ass will find his clothes on the front lawn and divorce papers on top.

Sister
Mood:  incredulous
Topic: Family
Just got done talking to my sister. Really hate my EX bro-in-law. C had three kids w/ Brian. C has two of them, 13 & 11. Brian spent years putting 13yo down and now 13 has to go to counseling and is practically suicidal b/c of low self-esteem. C is going through hell b/c of this -- Anxiety and depression seem to run in our family and C is definitely not lacking from anxiety. The boys are down with the A**hole this weekend in OK. Haven't seen their dad for over a month and the dad isn't pushing to see them and vice versa. UGH! Brian isn't paying the child support he's supposed to either. I was sending C some money every week to help her out (She makes $30G a year and that's not much to support three people when two are practically teenagers) but money's been tight up here so can't help much. C's the only one in my family that knows about my "secret life" everyone else thinks I bartend. The only reason she knows is b/c I had to tell her so she would stop trying to send the money back to me. That was about a year ago and she's cool with it now. She knows I'm not stupid and won't get caught up in the stereotypical behaviours that people pin on Dancers. Anyway, had to bitch about her ex-ass.

First day
Mood:  a-ok
Topic: Background Info
Hello all. Before I get into full Blogging mode, you might like to know a little about me. I'm 25 years old. Married to a 75% great guy (let's be realistic) and am trying to finish college. Really want to be an accountant, but my GPA is standing in the way. Hubby (call him J) is from NY (We're now in midwest) and the military brought him here. We met b/c I was dating his best friend (who dumped me). Long story short, we've been together for close to 5 years now. No kids, but two cats Scotch & Tipsy. Honestly didn't plan for their names to relate so much. First was "Butter"scotch & second was for her tips of her ears. I'm an animal lover (except for spiders -- yuck) I was born/raised on a farm in SW KS so actually have some morals, religion, and work ethic bred into me. I love my family very much -- or at least my sister and her kids. I have 4 brothers and one sister -- all have kids, sister is finally getting divorced. My Dad passed away almost 3 years ago and now my mom (64?) has an 80 year old "companion" (who I obviously don't care for) I'm very sentimental (I've saved all the movie stubs from when J & I started dating and are still doing it) Now for the "interesting" part -- i'm a dancer. No, not ballet-- the clothing optional type. Don't judge me. I don't have sex with customers and I despise druggies. I'm one of the first to "Tattle" at work if a new girl is dirty. It's just a job until I finish school. Trust me, the job is not all that glamorous. It's more of a headache putting up with drunk a**holes all night just to get a dollar on stage. The money can be nice, but if you keep reading, i'll let you in on all the drama and headaches I have to go through. Just give me a chance before you judge and turn away. Hope I can provide some interesting reading for you!